I know there is something out there for me….a plan….something Greater than what I’m living now. And it’s not for myself, but my dream to help others….but sometimes, sometimes I just don’t get it. 2 weeks of work….2 weeks of preparation put in…..not only myself, but others as well….into something that was supposed to happen today. Only at the last-minute for it to be cancelled. It’s at these times…..in that initial moment….I just want to yell out, “WHY?”
My goodness…..and the disappointment just continues…..All I wanted to do was sit down and write about my experience today but as soon as I try to concentrate….”The TV isn’t loud enough, the kid is dragging the plastic dog toy across the wood floor. I don’t want to take a shower. Screaming children. Crazy dogs.” Maybe I’m not meant to write today, but maybe this is meant to be a lesson in accepting disappointment for what it is and patience.
As Paul says in his letter to the Colossians, “So, as those who have been chosen of God, holy and beloved, put on a heart of compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness, and patience; bearing with one another, and forgiving each other, whoever has a complaint against anyone; just as the Lord forgave you, so also should you. Beyond all these things put on love, which is the perfect bond of unity. Let the word of Christ richly dwell within you, with all wisdom teaching and admonishing one another with psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing with thankfulness in your hearts to God. Whatever you do in word or deed, do all in the name of Lord Jesus, giving thanks through him to God the Father (Colossians 3:12-17.)”
So I will forgive the one who disappointed me today. Maybe today just wasn’t the right time. I will love my children….even though they drive me up a wall sometimes……and, well, there really isn’t much that can be done with the dogs. I will be patient. I will take a breath, I will set my eyes on God, and I will continue with His plan. For I’m not supposed to know the ending, just the next step along the way.
All days aren’t perfect. And all days aren’t disasters. In fact, today was pretty darn good. We got up and went to church as a family for the first time almost all summer……since they boys have been away. Then we came home and watched some Elevation Church as a family while eating lunch. We had some outdoor play time and hung out together and played some iPhone games.
That’s why at the end of the day you can’t let that one thing that doesn’t go just right drag down the rest of the day and keep you down all night. Because at the end of the day……who really cares if I didn’t have my meeting that I was supposed to? Does it really affect my life (well, it could, but I still haven’t closed this chapter…just put it on hold.) We are all going to struggle from time to time….but its how you respond….its where you place your faith and trust. And like I’ve said many times….my faith is in something much greater than myself. My trust lies with Jesus Christ. So as day becomes night, the house is quieter, the boys are in bed, the dogs are laying down, and I now have the perfect writing conditions (even though I’m about finished,) the events that didn’t happen today will pass. The disappointment is all but gone, and I will move on, press on, continue on, in my faith, into tomorrow……to see what Monday has in store.
I pray that when the disappointments come, and they will, that you have the faith to trust in the Plan….that even though you may not know why whatever happened, happened….that it happened for God’s purpose. I pray that you can put your faith in Him in these times. It’s a struggle, and a struggle I go through as well, but when you place that faith where it belongs, then the days will become easier, and those disappointments will be easier to get through and recover from.
Tetelestai 